Bad news

We got a call today about 10:30AM that the procedure did not work. None of them survived. We are very sad and really disappointed in the loss. It is really hard to see your husband so upset. I think I became more sad for him and I think he felt the same way...sad for me. We will survive. We have no idea where to go from here. So, we will just have to rely on God to set that path unto which we will follow. I am tired of making decisions, so I will just put this one back on Him. "That which does not kill us, only makes us stronger!"

Back at home

I had my procedure yesterday and I am feeling really well. I would not consider myself a hyper person by any means, but it is really hard to keep still. I have all my favorite covers and my book...well, and my laptop to keep me busy. The procedure itself was really interesting. I had to have a FULL bladder to get a really good image during my sonogram...so that was the most painful part of the procedure. They then got on the phone and on speaker yelled for "Lisa" (our babysitter for the moment) to come and bring the 2 embryos. They put them in through what my doctor so lovingly called a "coffee straw". Artie and I could see them go in and then they were done. I stayed there for 20 min and I was on my way home. CRAZY! It all took less than 45 min and then I was the new incubator. They emplanted the 2 on the left. If you look at the top left one, that will show you a little hole or crater. That means it is mature enough to be put in. The ones on the right will be frozen to be used at another time if needed. The numbers on the side tell how big they are growing. They were, as of yesterday, one BB. It is a big long word, but let's just say it is good! Hope this excites you like it did us. Not many people get to see how their kids grow after conception, so we think we are really lucky and blessed to see the whole process through!

Quads

Just kidding! But what we did find out today is that there are 4 strong and multiplying embryos. They will put two of them in on Friday at 11:15AM and then they will freeze the other 2 so that if we would like to do this again, we have the chance.

We are blessed that there are 4. Sometimes they don't reproduce at all. So we are good to go so far. We will find more out in the next couple of days.

Thank you for your prayers and please continue to pray that this process will be successful.

Round one!

Well, I just got back from the drs. office and we are looking pretty good. They found 10 eggs and had enough sperm to start doing their magic. We will find out this week how many took and what our chances look like. I was quite nervous this morning and poor Artie looked more scared than I have ever seen him in our 4 years together. Anticipation can really drain you. I am feeling ok...not in too much pain at the moment. Just going to take it easy and get ready to head back to school Monday. Thank you all for your thought and prayers. They have worked so far. God is faithful and I know He will continue to watch over us. They will put my eggs back on Friday...so we will need another round of prayers then as well.

D day is Sunday

The more we try to do things right, be prepared, and plan accordingly... the more God says, "Hey you two...who is in control of this thing anyway?" I went to the doctor Wednesday to see if all was going as planned to have the egg retrieval on Friday. Of course not. So they pushed me back to Saturday. So we shoot up to Bedford (which is like an hour away from Red Oak) to get my blood test and sono for the 15th time this month. Not much change again. My estrogen levels are through the roof, but only one follicle is big enough. So we go back on Friday. This time I am ready to hear good news. Sunday it will be. We were in great spirits. Head off to Costco to buy stuff we can really live without. My phone rings...the drs office is calling. YIKES! I answer and "Lisa" is on the phone. Just to back track a little. I have already had a run in with one of the IVF nurses about having a sperm donor on reserve if things don't go well on Sunday. So back to the story. She starts in on the donor stuff again and I nearly had a breakdown in the middle of Costco. Artie is telling me to keep my voice down and I am HOT under the collar that they are bugging me about this again and while I am at Costco of all places. They want this to be successful even if it means having someone elses kid. I told her again to "stuff her donors in a sack and quit asking me about them". I am either having my husband's kids or we will adopt. They really don't get that. God is in control of this situation and if kids are in His plans, then they will find what they need to find and it will be all good. We are just not having a baby to just have a baby. "WE" want to have "OUR" babies. So needless to say, we were a little down after that. But it is nothing that some Bluebell can't fix. We are ready and nervous about Sunday. Please keep us in your prayer some more. We have 3 weeks before all of this is said and done.

Happy times!

Amy called me the other day and she is coming back to Texas for a visit. I could not be happier!I get to spend all Spring Break awaiting her arrival and then spend Easter with her. She has been gone nearly 2 years. YIKES...how time flies! She hasn't seen me since I have lost weight, so that will be fun. My state fair friend...can't wait to see ya!

Down to the wire

I am winding down on my appointments and only have one more on Monday. They will tell me then if I am ready to have those pesky eggs removed on Thursday. We had an appt. today and was a little scary. The nurse who did my sono said that the follicles are not as big as they should be. GREAT! That is all I need to hear. But she said everything can change in 2 days time. I got a call today about 1:30PM and she said my hormone levels had jumped nearly 100 points and that was a good indicator that I could be good to go on Monday. So pray that those crazy follicles are big and very visible. I don't think we could handle having to stop this process and start up again in a month. But we will roll with the punches and pray that we stay right on track.